For most of my life I believed that if I just worked harder, pushed a little more, said yes a few more times — everything would stay afloat. I became a leader because I was good at getting things done. What I didn't see was that the habits that made me successful were quietly becoming the thing holding me back.
I used to see delegation as weakness. If I wasn't the one doing it all, who was I? Would things fall apart? Would people think I wasn't pulling my weight? What I know now is that the tight grip wasn't strength — it was fear. Fear of being let down, fear of failure, fear of not being needed.
God has been teaching me something different. Leadership isn't about control — it's about stewardship. Being faithful with what you've been given doesn't mean carrying it all yourself. It means trusting others to carry the vision with you.
I've been practicing this in small ways. Letting my kids cook dinner. Delegating projects instead of hovering. Having groceries delivered. It sounds minor, but every time I release something I'm building a trust muscle. And with every rep, I feel lighter.
When I hold everything too tightly I become the bottleneck — for my team, for my clients, and for my own growth. But when I open my hands and let others rise, something multiplies. The team feels it. The people I serve feel it. And I finally have space to actually lead instead of just survive.
Letting go isn't quitting. It's obedience with open hands.